There are moments in family life where you realize everyone is acting in a movie—something between Pirates of the Caribbean and a low-budget psychological thriller—and somehow no one handed you the script.
This Fourth of July, I found myself at our family lake house trying to understand what exactly was happening and, more importantly, why everyone seemed committed to pretending it all made perfect sense. The main character of the evening—other than America, fireworks, 1776, July 4th signatures, and emotional repression—was my nephew Jack.
Jack is bright, hilarious, energetic, loud, curious, and deeply allergic to boredom. In other words: he is a child. And to the point—he is a Melenyzer child, which I feel matters, because we have taught him how to be by how we be.
To Be or Not To Be.
That isn’t even a question anymore because we have research. Loads of it that state that the closer a person can come to their authentic self and be this way around their people, the healthier they will present positively with their mental health. But I don’t want to sound to therapisty because
1. I am still a student with only two classes.
2. This is a family system, so…bias.
3. Unfortunately, he was also the only actual child in a sea of adults.
That bias matters.
Because adults can sit around for hours talking about mortgages, politics, blood pressure, what’s for dinner, or strange topics that can only happen after forty-five. Children cannot. They need movement, imagination, and something that engages them. Jack had very little of that. So naturally, by late evening, he was struggling.
But before the cookie incident, there had actually been something beautiful unfolding. We were all outside watching the Independence Day fireworks over Canyon Lake. My dad built what can only be described as a crow’s nest—a raised perch giving us an almost panoramic view of the lake and fireworks going off in every direction.
It was genuinely spectacular.
At one point, Jack got nervous about the height. Not a little nervous. Full-body, multiple-exclamation-point nervous.
“I’m scared of heights!!!!!!”
I said, “Come sit with your Aunt Jenn. I’ll protect you. I’ll hold your shirt, or you can sit right next to me. Or you can sit on my lap.”
He chose my lap.
I almost wish he hadn’t, because I had a full bladder and he is a certified wiggle worm. But I didn’t hate it. Actually, I loved it. I loved that he still fits in my lap. I loved even more that he chose it himself. There is something sacred about a child autonomously deciding who feels safe.
Gracelyn, being Gracelyn, joked about tossing him over the edge. I immediately said, “No she won’t. I’ll eat her like the cookie she just gave me. Stay with me, Jack. I’ll protect you.”
Jack replied, without missing a beat:
“Let’s kill her.”
Gracelyn and I both froze.
“What the—?”
I looked at him and said, “Jack, you’ve been playing way too many video games. We do not use violence to solve our problems… unless you’re a bunch of aristocrats who don’t want to pay off the war England footed the bill for so the French and Indians didn’t make us speak different languages.”
Jack did not look nearly as confused as he should have.
That should tell you something about this child.
A few minutes later he said, “Aunt Jenn, I’m not that scared. I can go to the cookie plate.” This is also Jack. Fear and courage living five minutes apart.
Someone pointed out a firework shaped like a cross. Gracelyn said, “No. It looks like Saturn.”
Jack yelled, “Uranus!” Perfect timing. He’ll be here all week, folks. Don’t you just love him?
Later he announced, “I want to watch Five Nights at Freddy’s.” Immediate veto. Then: “I want to watch Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines.” Also a hard no.
At some point he looked at one of his aunts and said, with total sincerity, “You’re seeing smells. No aunt. Not singing–you’re seeeeeeeing.” And honestly? I feel like that may be the theological center of the entire evening. And THAT is all I am going to say about THAT. Certain humans have seeing that smells. And it didn’t sound like a good smell to me…but again, bias.
Because that is Jack. His brain does not move in straight lines. It leaps. It blends categories. It notices strange things. It says the quiet part out loud. Which is usually spot on the center. I wish I had a creative pirate line here–but bulleyes come to mind.
Jack is not just loud. He is original. Unique. Gifted. He is funny. He is deeply alive.
Then I asked him, “Jack, what do adults need to learn today?”
He answered:
“God is awesome. Jesus is great.”
Then, after a beat:
“Where is my cookie? I hate fireworks when there aren’t cookies. Especially when GRACELYN stepped on my rotten flesh toe”. That is an actual quote. I swear to you. I immediately recognized that we are the family of hyperbole.
Hyperbolic Theology. Then carbohydrates. An excellent hierarchy, frankly, because that’s my favorite way to do most things.
Now, before you crown me Patron Saint of Psychological Insight, let me confess that I was not exactly floating around the lake house dispensing serene wisdom. Earlier in the evening, Jack had been getting a hard time for being loud. He was being told to calm down, which is psychologically rich coming from a family that does not exactly practice what it preaches.
We are loud.
We are the opposite of calm.
We ARE fun but come buckled up for safety.
But what are we actually asking of Jack?
Never in the history of ever has telling someone to calm down landed as emotionally compassionate. Or even accurate. Sometimes it’s perfectly fine being NOT calm. It was freaking Independence Day. How are we missing this?
People living in glass lake houses probably shouldn’t skip rocks inside said house, which is ironic, because no one considered taking their nephew down to the actual water and teaching him how to skip rocks so we could help him burn off some child energy. That human was at a different party. I won’t name her but she may be an inspiring writer.
Also important to point out: I have parentified this child too, so I don’t exactly have a perfectly solid leg to stand on right now. It’s more like a peg leg.
There. Worked.
But again—because he is a child—Jack was upset, frustrated, throwing a fit, and I had a simple plan.
Find him a cookie.
I am not saying cookies solve trauma. I am saying cookies have remarkable de-escalation potential. Meaning, when you stick something sweet into a compulsively amazing child’s mouth–said mouth becomes too busy to preach anymore.
We were outside watching the fireworks while everyone settled into their chosen viewing spots. My dad’s crow’s nest gave a spectacular view. It was dark. And in order to find the cookie, I needed light.
So I used my phone flashlight to locate the cookie plate.
An adult relative sharply yelled at me.
A grown woman.
Sharp enough that the whole moment shifted: Because I turned on a flashlight.
To locate baked goods. For her nephew. Who she had just given crap to for needing to be silenced. I was honoring her. And him.
I paused. Looked up. And calmly said:
“Do you want to say please?”
I would like to report that everyone applauded.
That did not happen.
Nobody said, “Hey, maybe don’t talk to Jenn like that.” Nobody said, “She’s trying to help.” Well—one person did. A younger family member quietly said, “Hey. Be nice.”
That mattered. Nobody else said anything. Which is fine, because we all have the autonomy to leave when our dignity is being stomped on. The “rebels” in 1776 may have agreed with me.
So I left, which honestly felt healthier than saying the next seventeen hundred and seventy six things that came to mind. (Yes, hyperbole is a “gift” in our family.)
I walked out of the main house and went to my haven—the boat barn. And here is where the story takes a turn toward the absurdly beautiful.
Nobody followed me.
Except Gracelyn.
Who also brought substances that calmed the nervous system. They were legal. Don’t jump to any conclusions.
So… it turned out, alright, alright, alright. @officiallymcconaughey.
Honestly, that may be the most accurate summary of my family dynamic: chaos, silence, then one emotionally intelligent younger person appears with unexpected emotional support to make everything alright.
But as I sat in the boat barn, I couldn’t stop thinking about how easy it is for a child to feel entirely alone in a room full of people. Loneliness isn’t about physical presence; it’s about emotional witness. You can be surrounded by family and still feel completely unseen, especially when just being yourself keeps getting corrected as “too loud” or “too much.” It broke my heart to realize how clearly he was feeling
the weight.
That kind of message settles into the body.
So no, this post is not about a cookie. Nor is it about how certain Someone’s are failing @Jesus. It’s about something much bigger. It’s about the difference between managing children and seeing them. It’s about remembering that sometimes the loud kid is not the problem. Sometimes the loud kid is an honest person in the room. Among a lake of honest people. So I’m not sure how we went sideways tonight. Truly. No anger in the writing of this post. Mostly confusion.
But, maybe that’s why I understand him. I understand confusion at a PHD level, without the degree. But I am studying Clinical Mental Health and that may be helpful some day so that I can understand him more. If we’re sticking with the family of honest–I know something about being the person who says the quiet part out loud. I know something about being told I’m too much. And maybe that’s why Jack and I get each other.
He’s loud on the outside.
I’m loud on the inside.
Different instruments.
Same song.
So no, the cookie was never about the cookie. The movie was never about the movie. And the flashlight was definitely never about the flashlight.
Sometimes the thing underneath the thing is the whole thing. This story is about one child who needed play. One aunt who saw it. And one truth I keep coming back to.
Children do not need perfect adults. They need at least one adult willing to enter their world and say:
Tell me what adults need to learn today?
Jack responded. “That God is Awesome and Jesus is good.”
Alright, alright, alright.
Postscript: As I was leaving to go back to the boat barn my mom reminded me: “Cookie will be here tonight! She’s out with her friends, but you may get to see her tomorrow at breakfast!”
No, that’s not her actual name. Yes, I could eat her with a spoon. And yes, it IS about eating that Cookie.
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